I’m Still Here

Yes, that’s right I am still here…but just barely.  I have been going through some real bad emotional stuff lately.  I just haven’t had the desire to visit The Park.  I am holding on as tight as I can, but I don’t know if it’s going to be enough.  

A few weeks ago I had one of the highest highs and now three weeks later I am at the bottom of well, bottom.  Postman and I have made the toughest decision of our lives.  We have decided to leave Baby Smoke with his paternal grandmother for now.  There are a lot of complicated issues at the heart of the matter, but right now, Postman and I have to do what’s best for our little family.  This doesn’t mean we cannot revisit having Baby Smoke as a part of our family, but as of right now it’s not the right time.

For those of you who have known me for quite some time, I want to thank you for all the support and friendship over the past few weeks.  You have all been a God send.  I am going to try and focus on what I do have going on in my life…Postman, Little Smoke, and my friends.

I am hoping to get back to some NASCAR postings over the next weeks since Daytona is just several weeks away.  Perhaps jumping into all my NASCAR passions, it won’t hurt so much.

3 thoughts on “I’m Still Here

  1. There’s a saying that if you’re going through hell … don’t stop. You’ll get through — step by step, post by post. Our prayers are with you Trix!

  2. It is getting better. I am smiling a little more and I have made a little peace with everything. I think once the NASCAR stuff gets going it will keep my mind off everything.

    Thank you for your thoughts.

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